problems, please go :'(

so many things had screwed up. i dun even know how to start again.

how i wish i could push all the insincerity away.

why it has to be like this? i cant even think well right now.

it's like a fog that blurs the sane. okay, a bit harsh.

everything come up with problems.

 it came like puff, and then everything's never be the same.

ohh Allah, please grant me a little bit resilient. so i can face all this.

i have a tonnes of things to do. but these matters 

had took my passions awayy.

then i get something from my friend who said,

"i know someone who named is mar. mar that i know is a

person who is strong and determined,, she knows how to control 

her problems and handle heavy burdens. and i believed 

that she will be fine"

yess i am,, i am a person who knows 

how to hide big things from everyone's eyes.

i know how to conceale my tears in front of my friends.

forcing laughter, faking smiles.

but im not sure i could stay pretending that way this time.

Allah is my only hope. and He will always be.

today's story~zzzz

okayy aku rase hari ni muke aku betol betol 

da macam zombie.

herr, semalam langsung tk tidoq. 

buat keje sampai waktu sahur. tk boley tido masalahnye.

da tktw nk buat ape., pagi2 pegi skola, pergh~

macam mayat hidup. ade la sorang tu yg cakap 

muke aku macam zombie.

waktu addmath aku boley TERtido ! 

tk pena2 aku tido waktu ticer sarimah, huhu.

dah la tdi ramai sangat yg tk datang,, bosan betol kelas.

  baris aku tu, ade dua org je,. 

kwn aku tu pulak memang salu tido,, budak asrama kann, haha.

aku rase ticer nampak kowt ktorang tido.

yelaa, budak tk ramai. so obvious sangat lahh 

bile ade yg buat aktiviti laen.

tk tahan kowt. untung laa tk kene panggil ke depan.

ingatkan balek skola boley laa topup tido., 

tapi tk jugakk~

ttibe umi amik hari ni. klw umi yg amik,, 

memang bjalan je la aktiviti nye.

sampai je at jj a.k.a ruma kedua, terus pegi smart wonderland. 

waktu nk beli coin tu lerr akak cashier tu cakap

"dik, kt sini bdk skola tk boley main"

hadoiy, mentang mentang la aku pakai baju skola,, 

dia ingat aku ponteng ke. eei geram,

 bukannye aku mntk sedekah kt dia pn.

bayar kenn. dia tk tw ke aku suke sangat main kt situ.

lagi lagi main gendang lagu jepun uuh, best laa~

main dgn hanis, huhu sadis.

kalaw tw macam tu memang aku tuka baju dulu da tadii.

bile agak agak kaki tu da penat nak round round lgi, balek r.

dalam mind da set, balek nk terus melingkor atas katil.

tpi tk lagi~ lupe plak kene pegi salon.

haa, time kt salon ni laa aku tido., haha.

bayangkan la, aku boley nye tido time 

amoi tu tengah gunting rambut.

dia tarik tarik rambut pun aku tk sedar.

waktu dia tengah shampoo pun aku tido.

bile da habis, dia cakap "dik, bangun,, nak pegi cuci"

segan gile kowt. aku tido sampai tersengguk sengguk.

heish, terok betol. 1jam lbey spent kt situ.

then baru lahh balek~akhirnyee.

halahh, balek pn bukan terus landing. dah tk ngantokk.

hm, semoga malam ni boley la tido lena.

and mimpi indah (;

okayy the end~~

ohh camry :/

knape dgn camry ayah ?

mule mule dgr bunyik mcm nk let go. tp ptg accident woo tdi.
kt office pulakk,. yg aku tabik nye dgn ayah ni, rileks jer.

tkde mara  mara pn org yg lggar tu,. pnyabar gile.

klw aku laa, tktw ape jdi.

bile aku tanye knpe dgn kereta tu.

ayah ckp ''ade org cium buntut kereta''

cium? haha, ayah funny~ aku dgn umi yg gelabah. grrr~

biase laa perempuan.

sebel !

hm, mcm mne ye nk ckp ngn bdk sorg ni.

salu sgt anta mesej pkul12. tgh mlm plak tuu. aku rimas gilee. 

sbbkn dia, aku jdi org yg salu sgt off fon.

heih, sbb rimas. eei, mmg rimas,, 

tengok tu, da ulang byk kali. ni taukid nme nye. 

tk perlu la mesej knon nk ckp psl skola dia or plajaran.

mcm tkde org laen jer. yg suda tu suda la.

drpd aku tkde rase benci kt dia, ttbe jdi tk suke bile dia buat mcm tu.

sampai kacau kwn aku. YA ALLAH, knpe dgn kau ni.

sampai nk libatkn kwn aku, mane nye tk naik darah aku.

aku paling tk suke bile hal aku mnyusahkan org laen.

tlong la pham. bile aku ckp tk suke, means aku mmg tk suke :'(